To all my readers,
I can’t pretend I’m coming back anymore.
I’m sorry to leave like this, but I just wanted to say thank you and goodbye.
To all my readers,
I can’t pretend I’m coming back anymore.
I’m sorry to leave like this, but I just wanted to say thank you and goodbye.
He’s been hearing the whispers all day, that there’s another trainee in the SM building. A Chinese one, this time, discovered on the streets, only here because of his looks.
Junmyeon doesn’t pay much attention to the rumours, because it’s only the fear of never reaching their dream (yes, only one dream for so many people) that makes the words spill from their lips.
He’s almost forgotten all about it by the time lunch is over, in fact, when he rounds a corner and collides with someone who is slight and skinny and somehow still manages to knock him straight to the ground.
“Sorry,” he says quickly, “it was my fault for not looking.” And then he does look, and what he sees sends a tremor through his fingertips and makes his throat seize up even as the other boy smiles.
“No, I’m sorry,” he says, in soft, accented Korean, “I didn’t mean to make you fall.”
junmyeon’s been waiting a long time for this - this chance, this life, this confirmation that he is good enough.
Read moreIt is an all-round horrific experience the first time they dye Kai’s hair.
Read moreAnonymous asked: That's weird, I wrote a Kaisoo-somewhat-drabble and in mine their positions are exchanged; Jongin as the dancer is totally comfortable with his body while Kyungsoo is horribly self-conscious and has some kind of eating disorder (not specified). Anyway, your stories really make me worried sometimes, I can't stop thinking about them. Do you think they could be true to some extent?
I think EXO is as human as any of us. Does that mean I believe that Kai actually has anorexia? No, because my stories are based on (a lot of) dramatic extrapolation of the boys’ actions that we get to see. I would say the likelihood of them being even slightly accurate is very, very small, especially given how much of EXO we don’t get to see - physically and mentally.
It took me awhile to respond to this comment just because I didn’t know how to. In a way, I’m flattered that my stories are able to affect you somehow. But on the other hand, just try to keep in mind that that’s all they are - stories. :)
he doesn’t muffle his cries into his pillow, instead locking his teeth together and trapping them inside.
Read morethere’s the sound of rustling bedsheets above his head and at first chanyeol thinks, okay, baekhyun’s just doing his usual settling in for the night, that’s fine, he can wait for him to get comfortable.
Read moreIt’s the first time that Kyungsoo has looked at him since this all started, really looked at him. Jongin is pale against the hospital sheets, and when Kyungsoo lays his arm beside his to compare them, the difference in skin tone isn’t as stark as it was seven months ago. Jongin’s cheekbones and forehead stand out as if his skin can barely stretch to cover them.
He waits until he’s sure Jongin is asleep before starting to cry.
It turns out that there is a word for what Jongin has. For his irrational fear of his favourite foods that Kyungsoo kept making, hoping he would change his mind about dinner. For his inability to look at himself in the mirror during dance practice without his face stiffening. For the way his shoulder blades would press against Kyungsoo’s hand when he laid it against Jongin’s back in an attempt to comfort him; for his wrist that Kyungsoo tried to keep hold of and had to release for fear of snapping it.
The doctors call it anorexia.
